(The squeaks) (Squeaks!) (Let′s try it again)
Most days I
Wake up with that deadly feeling
Heavy air and never breathing
Pretty sure this won't resolve
I didn′t
Think that I could sink this low
And if I stand out in the snow I'm
Pretty sure that I'll dissolve
Why′s it so hard
Wanting to get better
Barefoot out in the cold
I′m always
Two steps away
From feeling okay
It's better this way
I wanna like myself
Don′t ask for the stars
They're too far away
I guess the dirt is okay
I wanna like myself
Cracked pavement
Laying in the grass at midnight
Unexpected winter sunlight
Sitting still just makes me sick
High fevers
Living out of spite
I′ll tell my mom and dad that they were right
And never hear the end of it
Trying so hard to want to get better
Learn to lose control
I'm always
Two steps away from
Feeling okay
It′s better this way
I wanna like myself
Don't ask for the stars
They're too far away
I guess the dirt is okay
I wanna like myself
Blue sky and wishful thinking
Miss the moments when I′m blinking
The pulse I hear inside my ears reminds me I′m alive
I'm waiting for the summer
Looking for my lucky numbers
Spacing out the shitty days
Remembering to cry
The sun could disappear
It feels a whole lot brighter here
I′m still missing pieces
No one's happy all the time
I always run on empty
Didn′t think I'd live to twenty
I am miles from the cliff
I′m finally scared to die
The pulse in my ears reminds me I'm alive
I'm always
Two steps away from feeling okay
I′m better this way
I wanna like myself
Don′t give me the stars
They're too far away
I think the dirt is okay
I wanna like myself
