I always see things
Upside, upside down
I don′t trust us to turn this ship around
I always see things
Think that I'm fine
I think I′m out of my fucking mind
Will it come back with fucking time?
Don't really know what the fuck I want
Don't really know what the fuck I′m on
Used to rap over beats by beats by con
Damn how far have I come it′s been too long
Now I'm on a beat by Farber
Changed my haircut changed my barber
Am I that different these days?
Is my music better?
Then why aren′t I paid?
Least my dick works so I get laid
Damn, I guess more has changed
Then I ever gave credit to
But I think it might be due
But if that means forgiving them
Nah fuck that fuck them too
Still remember the jokes
Just wanted love like Joe from you
Only thing left to do is leave this town
Burn these memories to ash right now
Then maybe I won't be so damn upside down
Kill the man I used to be
Cut my leash
Set me free
From the winter snow to the summer breeze
I ain′t coming back I left my keys
I can't handle it when you beg so please
Let me be the man I think that I′m supposed to be
Changing is hard I know
Please just let me go, let me go
Turn this ship around
I always see things
Fell in love and then I lost it
Forgot how to write that topic
But it's only right
Made her cry too many nights
She felt so much while I felt so little
Take it a step at a time my shrink reminds me
But it's hard not to get impatient
I relapsed and now I′m faded
Surprised that I′m not dead
High as fuck while I pick up the pen
Falling back into older habits
If I see it then I need to have it
I need to grab it
Got some trauma crack some jokes so I'm still laughing
If I′m truthful I'm still practicing some honesty
I owe some fucking apologies
I′m still that old stupid kid
Skipping meals
High on fields
Damn drug deals
Pills have fucked up all my feels
But I'm fine I guess
Pills help me with all my stress
Pressure closes up my throat
I need help to breathe
Sorry baby I had to leave
Please don′t beg
Get off your knees
I don't know who the fuck I am
They're gunna say what they′re gunna say
Like QU4DE has gone insane
I′m breaking down all of my pain
At least I survived another day
Guess I've got some more to change
