Urge to the darkness its callin my nik moet ma
Urge to the darkness its callin my nik moet ma
Urge to return to the darkness, it′s calling my name
Every effort to stay positive, met with shame
Two years sober, fought the fight
But the world keeps punching, day and night
Psychiatrist's words, echo in my mind
Alcoholics Anonymous, a lifeline I find
But nobody cares, nobody sees
The internal war, the silent pleas
Every step forward, feels like a step back
Trapped in a cycle, painted pitch black
Trying to stay clean, trying to hold on
But the hate in my heart, it′s never gone
Dark thoughts whisper, seductive and vile
Promising comfort, just for a while
But I resist, clinging to hope
Walking on a tightrope, trying to cope
Society's blind, doesn't see the pain
Judging shadows, in the pouring rain
Every meeting, every confession
Met with indifference, no compassion
Fought my demons, clawed my way
But the world′s apathy, leads me astray
Hate festers, grows inside
A monster I can no longer hide
Hate festers and i can no longer hide
I can no longer hide
Urge to relapse, to drown it all
But I stand firm, refuse to fall
Two years sober, scars on my soul
But the darkness tries to take control
Every day a battle, every night a war
Nobody sees the wounds, they just ignore
The hate inside, it burns so bright
Making it hard to see the light
Psychiatrist′s advice, a broken record spin
Alcoholics Anonymous, a fight within
But the loneliness, the crushing weight
Turns hope to ashes, love to hate
I scream in silence, no one hears
Drowning in a sea of fears
The darkness, my old friend
Whispers promises, no end
But I fight, hold on tight
To the shred of hope
But I fight, hold on tight
To the shred of hope, to the faint light
Though the world's indifferent, cold and mean
I refuse to let the darkness reign supreme
Every punch, every bruise
A testament to the path I choose
To stay sober, to stay sane
Even when the world brings endless pain
It brings endless pain
So I walk this path, scarred and bruised
Hating the world, but refusing to lose
The darkness calls, but I push away
Fighting for another day
In this battle, I stand alone
But I′ll keep fighting, flesh and bone
For two years sober, and many more
I'll defy the darkness, and shut the door
Living in my car, a world of my own
Far from the chaos, the seeds I′ve sown
Family ties, twisted and frayed
Before I relapse, before I'm swayed
The anger inside, a ticking time bomb
Rather be alone, than cause harm
Driving away from the pain and the strife
In the solitude of my makeshift life
Four wheels my home, the road my friend
Seeking solace, a peace that won′t bend
Leaving behind the chaos and rage
Before I'm consumed by this dark cage
Alone with my thoughts, in the dead of night
Stars as my witness, my only light
The urge to explode, the rage to bear
Better to be alone, than not care
In the solitude of my car, I find peace
Away from the turmoil, the struggles cease
No more triggers, no more fights
Just the road ahead, under the night's lights
Before I implode, before I break
Living in my car, my own sake
Distance from the ones I love
To protect them, to rise above
The darkness within, a beast untamed
In my car, I′m not ashamed
To walk away, to leave it all behind
Before the anger consumes my mind
So I drive into the night, a lone star
In my car, I′ll find who we are
Away from the family, the ties that bind
Before I relapse, lose my mind
Alone with my thoughts, in the dead of night
Stars as my witness, my only light
The urge to explode, the rage to bear
Better to be alone, than not care
In the solitude of my car, I find peace
Away from the turmoil, the struggles cease
No more triggers, no more fights
Just the road ahead, under the night's lights
Distance from the ones I love
To protect them, to rise above
Hate festers and i can no longer hide
I can no longer hide
Hate festers and i can no longer hide
I can no longer hide
