Always drawn to the mean, the cruel, the cold
A pattern repeating, a story retold
Is it my dark, sad upbringing to blame
A father′s hatred, a life of shame?
He told me, becoming a father destroys joy
Just hated me, treated me like a toy
Never loved, always despised
Left my heart broken, my soul paralyzed
Now I seek the same pain, the same despair
Attracted to women who don't care
Is it an unconscious drive, a twisted need
To relive the torment, to let my heart bleed?
I dont know man
Mean women, cold as ice
Mirror the past, the lifelong vice
Am I looking for the same old pain
A cycle of misery, driving me insane?
Its really a cycle of shit
Father′s words, a curse in my mind
Destroying happiness, leaving love behind
His hatred, a dark shadow I can't escape
Now I seek the same, in a different shape
Every cruel word, every cold touch
Feels familiar, it's all too much
Am I trapped in a loop, a vicious game
Seeking women who bring the same shame?
A father′s disdain, a child′s plight
Now I search for love in the dead of night
Attracted to the mean, the vicious, the vile
Am I doomed to walk this path for a while?
Unconsciously craving the pain I knew
Recreating the past, in someone new
A dark upbringing, a twisted quest
Looking for love, but finding the rest
Am I destined to repeat, never to heal
Attracted to the mean, unable to feel?
Father's hatred, a lifelong scar
Now I seek the same, no matter how far
A cycle of pain, of dark despair
Loving the mean, because they don′t care
Is it the past that binds me tight
Or am I just lost, in this endless night?
Every cruel glance, every vicious word
Feels like a chorus I've always heard
A symphony of pain, a melody of hate
Is this the love that I create?
Am I doomed to chase the shadows of my youth
Running from the lies, hiding from the truth?
A father′s scorn, etched deep in my soul
Now I seek the same to feel whole
Mean women, dark and fierce
Cut through my heart, like a sharpened pierce
Is it comfort in the chaos, or just a twisted need
To bleed the same blood, to let my heart bleed?
Every relationship, a mirror of the past
A storm of emotions, never meant to last
Am I lost in this cycle, unable to break
Seeking the pain, the endless heartache?
A father's voice, a haunting refrain
Telling me love is just a chain
Now I bind myself with the same old lies and ties
Caught in a web of familiar lies
Attracted to the mean, the heartless, the cruel
Playing the fool
A father′s voice, a haunting refrain
Telling me love is just a chain
Now I bind myself with the same old ties
Caught in a web of familiar lies
Attracted to the mean, the heartless, the cruel
Playing the fool
, in this endless duel
Is it a destiny forged in childhood's fire
Or just a broken man, lost in desire?
Every tear, every scream, echoes in my head
Living the nightmare, a life misled
Am I seeking redemption in the same dark place
Or just reliving the past, a cruel chase?
Mean women, shadows of my past
A cycle of pain, designed to last
Is it love I seek, or just the pain
Caught in a storm, an endless rain?
A dark upbringing, a twisted quest
Looking for love, but finding unrest
A father's hatred, a scar so deep
Now I seek the same, in my sleep
Am I doomed to repeat, forever in strife
Attracted to the mean, destroying my life?
Or can I break free, find the light
Escape the shadows, win the fight?
Every tear, every scream, echoes in my head
Living the nightmare, a life misled
Am I seeking redemption in the same dark place
Or just reliving the past, a cruel chase?
A cycle of pain, of dark despair
Loving the mean, because they don′t care
Is it the past that binds me tight
Or am I just lost, in this endless night?
